Walking to work: On drinking sinking sessions

Each morning I rehash and replay the previous night's conversations in my head, looking for loopholes and stupid things I might have said, because sometimes I get manic and I don't know when I'm at it until the morning after, and I rehash and replay the previous night's conversations and drinking sessions and find do's and don't's lessons and I do not forigve myself for the stupid things I've said.